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  Who’s Loving You

  Also by Mary B. Morrison

  Maneater (with Noire)

  Sweeter Than Honey

  When Somebody Loves You Back

  Nothing Has Ever Felt Like This

  Somebody’s Gotta Be On Top

  He’s Just a Friend

  Never Again Once More

  Soul Mates Dissipate

  Who’s Making Love

  Justice Just Us Just Me

  Coauthored with Carl Weber

  She Ain’t the One

  Mary B. Morrison writing as HoneyB

  Sexcapades

  Presented by Mary B. Morrison

  Diverse Stories: From the Imaginations of Sixth Graders (an anthology of fiction written by thirty-three sixth graders)

  Who’s Loving You

  MARY B. MORRISON

  KENSINGTON PUBLISHING CORP.

  www.kensingtonbooks.com

  With much love, respect, and admiration for my wonderful son,

  Jesse Bernard, Jr., to all the single mothers like myself…love yourself first,

  and to King MaxB Byrd, our loving baby Yorkshire terrier.

  Contents

  Why I Love You

  A Special Message to Women Everywhere

  CHAPTER 1: Honey

  CHAPTER 2: Grant

  CHAPTER 3: Honey

  CHAPTER 4: Grant

  CHAPTER 5: Red Velvet

  CHAPTER 6: Honey

  CHAPTER 7: Grant

  CHAPTER 8: Red Velvet

  CHAPTER 9: Honey

  CHAPTER 10: Grant

  CHAPTER 11: Honey

  CHAPTER 12: Sapphire

  CHAPTER 13: Honey

  CHAPTER 14: Valentino

  CHAPTER 15: Honey

  CHAPTER 16: Sapphire

  CHAPTER 17: Grant

  CHAPTER 18: Red Velvet

  CHAPTER 19: Grant

  CHAPTER 20: Honey

  CHAPTER 21: Valentino

  CHAPTER 22: Sapphire

  CHAPTER 23: Honey

  CHAPTER 24: Sapphire

  CHAPTER 25: Grant

  CHAPTER 26: Valentino

  CHAPTER 27: Honey

  CHAPTER 28: Sapphire

  CHAPTER 29: Grant

  CHAPTER 30: Red Velvet

  CHAPTER 31: Sapphire

  CHAPTER 32: Valentino

  CHAPTER 33: Honey

  CHAPTER 34: Red Velvet

  CHAPTER 35: Valentino

  CHAPTER 36: Honey

  CHAPTER 37: Sapphire

  CHAPTER 38: Valentino

  CHAPTER 39: Grant

  CHAPTER 40: Red Velvet

  CHAPTER 41: Honey

  Book Club Questions

  Lagniappe Section

  Where is the Black Love?

  LACONNIE TAYLOR-JONES

  K. L.

  Love Is…

  Who’s Loving Mary B. Morrison

  Acknowledgments

  PURPOSE OF BEING UNCONDITIONALLY SINGLE

  PROLOGUE

  CHAPTER 1: Red Velvet

  CHAPTER 2: Grant

  CHAPTER 1: Lace

  CHAPTER 2: Lace

  PROLOGUE

  CHAPTER 1: Brian

  CHAPTER 2: Herschel

  CHAPTER 3: Lexington

  Why I Love You

  Date:

  Given To:

  Given By:

  Personal Message:

  A Special Message to Women Everywhere

  Please take time to learn who you are. Know that you are worthy of greatness. You do not need validation from anyone, for those who judge you know not the content of your heart. They do not know the unpaved roads you’ve traveled. In the still of the night and sometimes in broad daylight, while no one was listening to your cries, you found the strength within and the faith to sustain the challenges you, yes, you, have overcome.

  No matter what your journey, you have so many reasons to be proud of yourself. Go on and smile. You know it’s true. Respect yourself. Love yourself. Your true value derives not from your bank account, your house, your car, or the clothes you wear. Your self-worth is predicated on how well you know yourself, how well you treat yourself, how much you love and value yourself.

  Hear me when I say, “No one will ever treat you worse than you treat yourself,” and no one should treat you better. When times get hard—we all experience hard times—and there seems to be no way out…keep breathing. Live another second, hold on another minute, hang in there another hour, and with each passing moment, know that your internal beauty is the pure essence of the greatest love, because without you; without your womanly nurturing, your motherly instincts, your ability to breathe life into every living human being; without women, men would cease to exist.

  Don’t let men brainwash you into believing they hold the power in a relationship. They don’t. Giving birth is the highest power of procreation. Men can’t do that. So, ladies, don’t have babies for men who aren’t worthy of your power.

  I hope you enjoy reading Who’s Loving You as much as I enjoyed writing it.

  CHAPTER 1

  Honey

  Love sucks! I swore on my sister’s grave, I wished I’d never met him. His voice had lingered in my mind with crisp clarity every damn day, like he was standing behind me, leaning over my shoulder, whispering in my ear. But he wasn’t. Not anymore.

  “Baby,” he used to say to me, and I would answer, barely above a whisper, “Yes?” Seductively, he’d say it again, “Baby,” in a tone that quieted me. “Yes?” I’d say softly. We’d go back and forth: then his long fingers and strong hands would gently caress the side of my face and massage my ears.

  I’d quiver whenever he’d moan, “Ummmm, you’re fucking incredible. You know that? And I’m not talking about your bedroom skills. Baby, you are an amazing woman.”

  His eargasms would make cool waterfall secretions flow from my pussy, wetting my lips, before he’d ease his hand between my thighs, pressing his middle finger against my clit. He was left-handed. I’d heard Dr. Oz say on Oprah that left-handed people were smarter, more balanced, and better capable of processing information than those of us who were right-handed. His index and ring fingers would straddle my shaft, nestling in the crevices of my lips, as he strummed my black pearl with his middle finger. That was my favorite finger.

  Gasping at the sound of his voice in my head, I knew…I was incredible. But no other man had told me that. No other man had said to me, “I love you.” Grant was my first. I let the tears fall, then closed my eyes, visualizing our moments together, lifting my lids to see only me, surrounded by olive painted walls, bright lime cabinets, dark forest granite countertops, and a kitchen floor covered with new hundred-dollar bills that had been permanently laminated into clear ceramic tiles.

  Green was my favorite color. I loved walking on men and money. I’d admit I was a little extravagant. A grand total of one million dollars—in hundred-dollar bills—was embedded in every floor of my home, including the bathrooms. Some preferred to walk on sunshine. Money was my visual reminder of where I’d come from. I wasn’t proud of how I’d stepped on and over a countless number of people to get where I was. Live and Let Die was my favorite James Bond movie and my motto. Standing in front of the kitchen counter, I slid an already sharp knife along the steel sharpener.

  Grant had been my joy. We’d loved sharing Cherry Garcia ice cream while watching The Boondocks DVD series, and making love. In between orgasms, we’d laugh at Huey, Riley, and their granddad. One time we stayed in bed all day, eating, sleeping, and fucking until we wobbled like ducks when we made our way to the bathroom for a much-needed piss.

  “Quack, quack,” I’d teased him.

  “Quack, quack, quack,” he’d tease me back.

 
Then, suddenly, our relationship had faded to dark. He was out of my life, as if I had frantically awakened from the best dream of my life. Shutting my eyes, I fought to go back to him, to go back to sleep and pick up where we had left off, before he left me. I tossed and wrestled with my empty bed. I opened my legs, easing the memory foam pillow between my thighs, then pulled my red satin sheet around my erect nipples, trying to forget he was no longer mine. Opening my eyes, I found myself standing in the kitchen, staring at a blue crystal bowl filled with red potatoes.

  How could my past ruin my future? I had tried my damnedest to give that man my best, and he had slammed the door to his heart in my face, as though I was a Jehovah’s Witness trying to save his spiritual behind so he would become the one-hundred forty-four thousandth person to make it…Where? To Heaven? Wherever that was. Who’d been there? What did they do to get in? Mistreat others?

  From hot to cold, within seconds he had swatted me away like I was a fly landing on his food, regurgitating shit. I’d meant nothing to him. It was as though he’d truly awakened to a stranger.

  Words were powerful beyond measure, but his silence hurt me more. He’d made me make myself go crazy. Wow. Love or the lack thereof could do that. Make one go crazy.

  “Answer your damn phone. You wrong for this shit, Grant! Dead wrong!” I yelled. I grunted loud enough to release my frustrations, but not so loud that someone in the house would come running to my aid with a straight jacket. My house had thirteen bedrooms. Twelve upstairs. Mine was the only one downstairs.

  “I should kill him. Goddammit, son of a bitch!” I screamed. Sucking the stream of blood oozing from my finger, I threw the knife, the potatoes, and the crystal bowl in the damn trash can. “Fuck this shit!”

  Love hadn’t hurt me. I was clear that I’d hurt the one I loved. Now I was the one suffering. Every time I got angry, so angry that I could harm Grant, something bad happened to my ass. Unzipping the first-aid kit, I pulled out a bandage.

  “He probably has some other bitch in his bed, sucking his dick right now, while I’m over here trippin’ on unresolved issues that I can’t control.” Not by myself.

  As I wrapped the Band-Aid tightly around my middle finger, thoughts of the way we had constantly been together replayed in my mind, reminding me of the irreplaceable love I’d lost. Where was I going to find another six-foot-five, 235-pound, twenty-eight-year-old, successful black man with a body sexier than any Chippendales dancer I’d ever seen? Grant was my man, and I’d be damned if I was gonna let him leave me. I just knew some ex-chick or someone hoping to be the next chick had been waiting for me to fuck up so she could move in on him, with him.

  “Not on my watch, bitch! Get your own man!” I grunted.

  Each morning I reached out my hand to touch him; rolled over, expecting to kiss him; opened my eyes, longing to see him. I called out his name, but he wasn’t there to answer, “Yes, Honey?” as he had so affectionately done. Had he been sincere when he’d said, “You’re the best thing that ever happened to me”? I wanted another chance. Hell, I deserved the opportunity to explain why I’d lied. Not everything I’d told him was a lie. Actually, most of what I’d shared about my past was the truth.

  “Grant, listen to me,” I said. “Are you seriously going to take someone else’s word over mine? So what if Benito is your brother! Hell, your own mama don’t like his ass. I can’t believe you’re upset with me about something that happened before we met. You’re not making any sense. Okay. Answer this one question. ‘Do you still love me? Yes or no?’”

  I wasn’t getting the answer I wanted; he wasn’t here to respond. All of this vacillating in the kitchen, talking to myself, had to stop. One minute I loved him; the same minute I hated his ass to death. I stood topless and barefoot in the middle of the kitchen, text messaging him: Baby, it’s not what you think. Please call me. I was trying to give him the impression I was being patient with him, but my patience had run out a long fucking time ago.

  CHAPTER 2

  Grant

  You thought you knew a woman; then you found out shit you wished you hadn’t. The saying “What you don’t know won’t hurt you” could actually kill you. In retrospect, I wished our relationship would’ve remained platonic. That way even if our friendship hadn’t flourished, I could have continued respecting her.

  We consummated our acquaintance the first day we met. From the airport to dinner, to dicking her down really good, Honey was one sweet lady. Nah, she wasn’t a lady; she was a woman. But was she that easy with every guy? Honey was hot and sexy, and my dick was hard and horny, and we clicked. My dick fit her pussy perfectly. I never wanted to wait to have sex with a woman I liked. What were we waiting for? The one thing I could’ve avoided this time, if I had waited, was having my heart broken. Broken heart and all, life went on. That was for sure.

  Parking in my parents’ driveway, I contemplated whether to go in. I didn’t feel like pretending I was happy again today. Stopping by to check on my mom and dad was routine. As usual, my old man peeked out the front window; then he opened the door, motioning for me to get out of the car. I read Honey’s text message, slipped my iPhone in the holder, then smiled at my father.

  We walked up the seven steps to the house, with my arm over his broad shoulders. Five inches taller, I towered over him. My dad retired five years ago; Mom hadn’t worked a day since they’d married. Her stay-at-home-wife job entailed taking care of my dad, my brother, and me, and although we could take care of ourselves, Mom still enjoyed taking care of us.

  Inside the house, I greeted my old man, hugging him tight. “You got a class this morning, old man?” I asked my dad.

  He lectured to high-school students during the day and taught entrepreneurial courses in the evening. I took over managing his rental properties when I opened my business, GH Property Management and Development, seven years ago. With Dad’s guidance, I’d done well for a twenty-eight-year-old.

  “Still trying to outdress me, huh, son? You gotta figure out where my new tailor is first. Close the door before one of those nasty flies creeps in.”

  I had the best mom and dad. I loved my parents. Would do anything for them. “Hi, my angel,” I said to my mother, kissing her cheek. She hugged my waist, holding on a few seconds longer than usual. Mom’s hugs reassured me that everything was good. The prolonged hug made me wonder if everything was okay.

  Mom whispered, “It’s already all right, son. Let go and let God. I know you want us to accept her, but she’s not the one for you.” Patting me on the back, she said, “You see your brother sitting over there? Speak.”

  Like I said, I would do anything for my parents.

  Benito got up off the sofa and hugged me. Mom hadn’t said anything about hugging that fool.

  “Hey, bro,” he said. “You dump Lace yet? I told Mom all about Lace’s past. Take it from me, I keep telling you I dated her for three years. She’s bad news.”

  Pushing him away, I said, “Her name is Honey, and I’m positive she’d plead temporary insanity for the entire three years.” Distancing myself from my brother, I followed my dad into the dining room.

  Benito was right behind us. “Whatever you wanna call her is cool, but I’m tellin’ you—”

  Dad interrupted him. “Benito, that’s enough. Why don’t you stop all the madness about that woman and tell us the truth about what’s going on with you? We haven’t seen you for twelve years, since you went off to college. And your mother just mailed Tyra a check for ten thousand dollars to pay your son’s tuition. You haven’t been home in a long time, but I raised you better. Even if your relationship with her is over, you need to go see your son. Now, why’d you come back here?”

  Thank God. I wanted to keep the focus on Benito, so I asked him, “Yeah. Why?” I smiled, waiting for my brother to answer. Benito was two years older than me, but he looked forty. His years of partying and drinking were etched on his face. I wasn’t having any kids until after I got married. I wanted two, maybe three. All boy
s.

  “I told y’all I kinda made a few bad investments, lost all my money. Then Lace kicked me out. I just need to stay until things settle. A few months. No longer than a year or two,” that fool said. Problem was he was serious.

  My mother walked into the room, sat a plate in front of my dad, then me, and went back into the kitchen.

  “What about me?” Benito yelled. “Why does Grant always have to be first?”

  “’Cause I check on my parents every day I’m in town,” I said. “Your behind didn’t call after you left, not until you needed us.” I really wanted to say, “Nigga, your sorry black ass need to get up outta here and stop leeching,” but my parents wouldn’t have approved of that.

  “Thank you, dear God, for this wonderful bounty, my mother, and my father. Amen,” I said. I blessed my stack of pancakes, strips of peppered bacon, and scrambled eggs and started eating. I had a business to run. Benito didn’t have shit else to do all day but lay up on my parents. I couldn’t believe my mother had paid his cell phone bill. He knew better than to ask me to do anything for him.